My Crossdressing Journey
Most of us probably started out by borrowing some of our mother's or sister's clothing. Then we'd sneak off somewhere, quickly change into whatever we were able to confiscate, then stand in front of a full length mirror admiring our new found curves and inner feminine beauty. Of course we had to be fast and get the clothes back and in exactly the same spot we found them or we could get caught! Can you imagine the shame and punishment we'd have to endure if we would have gotten caught? I'm sure some of you probably did get caught, but i was very lucky and didn't.
It's hard enough getting past the guilt that plagues most of us when it comes to dressing, let alone the embarrassment of seeking out help in becoming a better woman. I've always been terribly clueless about certain things, like applying make-up, talking like a woman, carrying myself like a woman. Basically all the details and nuances that make women who they are. Without any finesse in this area, I'd always be just a guy in girl's clothing.
The internet showed so much promise when it came to my cross dressing education. Almost daily I'd search out and try new tips and suggestions. I read everything that i could related to cross dressing, and hung out in chat rooms trying all the various tips that I'd found, or others had suggested. Some of the tips were genuinely useful, but many of them weren't worth the effort. It was frustrating and disheartening. No matter what I did, I always seemed to look like some guy that was wearing womens clothing.
Just as I was about to give up and become resigned to the fact that I'd always look like a guy in drag, a close cross dressing friend from chat sent me a link to a cross dressing guide. To say I was skeptical would be an extreme understatement. She assured me that it would be well worth my time to try it. I couldn't argue with her because she was one of the most gorgeous women I've had the good fortune to know.
I have to say that her advice was the best advice that anyone has ever given me regarding becoming a better woman. I followed the suggestions and tips in the book and could see myself progress almost daily. Things that I'd never considered when it came to feminization suddenly became crystal clear. I started looking at the process in a whole new light. It was a fundamental change in my perception. I approached things differently and focused on being a whole woman instead of just appearing to be one. My confidence skyrocketed, and in turn so did my sexuality. I went from closeted to passable in a matter of months.
So if you're feeling disappointed, or sad that your efforts aren't producing the required results, DON'T GIVE UP! Keep searching and trying new techniques. Approach things in different ways, and explore yourself. Eventually you'll find your way and become the best woman you can. Trust me, if i can, anyone can.
- Andrea-L. Huntington